memorial day visit

We had a great visit with Goldielocks and her mom over Memorial day weekend! Baby Bear had a great time jumping on the bed, playing with the phones and riding the elevator!!! Just wanted to share a few links -- you can jump to goldilocks blog and see some there too!http://goldielocksn3bears.blogspot.com/

Baby Bears Spring 2008 Picture

You loved her first

Since I have adopted Kassidy and she has come into my life and been my daughter, I view things and hear things much differently. For example when I hear songs, the meaning is different for me. When Kassidy was a few months old I heard the song "Keeper of the stars" by Tracy Bryd -- It says it was no accident me finding you, someone hand a hand in it long before we ever knew -- then the chorus says - I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars he sure knew what he was doing when he joined these two hearts , I hold everything when I hold you in my arms, now I have all I will ever need thanks to the keeper of the stars -- So ofcourse this made me think of Goldlielocks and babybear and our relationship. So I was listening to the radio the other day - yes it was something else besides Elmo, Barney or Kidz bop! I heard the song I Loved Her First by Heartland and it is about a father and his realtionship with his daughter as she is getting married well here are the lyrics (I am changing father to mother) this is the chorus
I loved her first and I held her first
And a place in my heart will always be hers
From the first breath she breathed
When she first smiled at me
I knew the love of a mother runs deep
And I prayed that she'd find you someday
But it still hard to give her away
I loved her first
Someday you might know what I'm going through
When a miracle smiles up at you
I loved her first
and there are other parts to the song - but oh my I so thought of Goldilocks and her love for baby bear--- She loved her first - before I even knew my daughter or saw my daughter she loved her first! Wow--- I may have a lot of firsts in her life now but that really melts my heart to know that she got that first-- what a special tie to always have to someone. She truely loved her first.

Mother' Day

Well I had a great Day!!! This is a picture of me and Baby Bear Headed out to church this morning!!!!! Oh how I used to dread going to church on Mother's Day - not any more!

Birthmothers Day

I know this is not a day that all like and I get that, but in my situation Goldilocks does, So I wanted to wish her a very happy day and let her know that she should be so proud of Baby bear, she is just this wonderful little girl that everyone loves so much -- I see So much of goldilocks in her everyday!!!! Thanks for being a part of our lives Goldilocks! We love you!

gonna change my blog name

from off my mind to losing my mind!!!!!!! Just a crazy week!!! 2 days ago my face swells up like a grapefruit and it is some blocked gland - I thought I was dying (apparently I am a bit of a drama queen) so I am about to be off to the ENT for that, last night baby bear throws up - no big deal I am 99% sure it was sinus drainage , we had just been to dr. yesterday and she was fine last night and this morning. So I decide to send her to her preschool for my coveted 2 hours this morning - so my dh is off and he takes her----- well he is gone about 10 minutes and the director calls and asks me what is going on with baby bear - because dh had left her and told the teacher -"oh don't worry if she is not herself, she was throwing up all night, were not sure what it is - maybe food poisoning" - o.k. really did he just do that is all I can think! So I say well that is not really the case but I will come get her - then she screams because she wants to stay and I feel like a fool because I have (in their eyes) just sent a sick puking kid to school - so I have bab mama wrote all over my forehead! What is wrong with my husband - seriously I think he has lost his mind---- I asked him why he said that when we knew she was fine - "um I don't know - I don't think I said it that way--" anyway - I just needed to rant and vent! Sorry! well gotta run and see why my face is expanding!

My kid looked good!

SO I have been feeling so stressed and spread out lately!!!!! I feel like I never get anything completed and I am always chasing my tail!!!! After a complete morning of feeling this way - I am driving and look in the rear view mirror and there is this little girl (baby bear) looking just completly together - dress so cute with pigtails, clean face, full tummy, dry diaper, clean socks and pretty white shoes, and beside her a fully stocked diaper bag, and full sippy cup! Then I thought - hey I can feel good about that - maybe I am doing a good and complete job at something!So the thing that makes me feel run crazy sometimes (being mommy) is also the thing that brings me back to sanity -- thanks baby girl!

Relay For Life

Well this year we lost a dear friend to cancer and my Aunt survived stage 4 lung cancer! So We wanted Kassidy to walk in the kiddie lap at our local relay for life and she just loved it! I was so proud of her- I know she is too young to understand but still it felt good just to be there and support the cause, and it was kinda like she knew she was doing something important---but we had loads of fun. She got to ride the pony and then when we get home she actually requested grits for supper! She calls them gets! And then ended the night playing with mommy and daddy in her room---She is such a blessing and we are so so blessed to have a healthy child! When they did the survivors lap and there were kids walking that hit home with me and let me say once again -- Thank you God that my child is healthy!

Where does she get those eyes?

So I bet I get asked this about 10 times a week! Baby bear has these big bright blue eyes! I have green and dh has hazel ---- and when people ask they are looking at our eyes with a confused look on their faces! So I am trying to think of a good/cute response to tell people ---- any ideas?