going under the knife

well thursday I am having an elective surgery but one that will not allow me to lift for several weeks, I am so freaked out about having to depend on others to take care of my kids! I really did not realize, or ok, maybe I did! but how hard it would be to let go of the control of caring for them, ofcourse one other little bump that makes me realize how hard it must have been for their first mommies to let go. I esp think about brother bears mom that truely had no options , but anyway my mind drifts to that but boom gotta get back to here and now, Im so lucky, I will still have them here everyday and will have help so its good, just thinking...