Santa Visti 2009

So we went to see Santa today and broter bear was not having any part of it!!!!

baby bear got style!

this was baby bear playing outside today! I am loving her new sense of style!!

Baby Bear! - aug. 2006

I just had the chance to scan this! it has been framed an on the wall for over three years, but brother bear was throwing a temper fit and hit his head on the wall and knocked it down, good times! :-) anyway just wanted to post this precious picture of baby bear when she was one month old!!!! Just precious!!! if I do say so myself!

Adoption Brain

Sometimes I think I am going crazy! really, like I have some type of multiple adoption personailty disorder or something! I can be reading about reform and thinking , man I cant believe that and what is that adoptive mom thinking, and thinking how clueless some potential adoptive parents can be and then, Boom! I will read a blog and see someone waiting or struggling or just starting the process and I sympatize with them and hope their wait is short and congratulate them on being approved. Sometimes I feel like I flip flop alot, I mean on one big hand, I am a mom because someone else could not parent or made a choice not to parent, I am a mom because of another woman, I have my kids because of adoption, and then I look at adoption and see so many things wrong on so many levels, but I KNOW my kids were meant to be with me, I know this from deep down inside my very being, I love my children so so much and I am fortunate to know their adoptions were ethical and that gives me comfort and peace.

hello IComLeavWe!

Just wanted to say a quick hello and thanks for stoping by my blog if you are from Nov. IComLeavWe! I am an adoptive mommy, to two young children that came to me through domestic infant adoption, tried the whole ttc thing for years, including shots, ivf, iui, fet, anyway>>> no baby. But most of that pain is long forgotten since baby bear and brother bear entered my life. I am in an open adoption with baby bears birthmom (goldielocks) she blogs and reads hear also, and in a closed adoption by the request of brother bears birth mom. I struggle with lots of things in the adoption world, life ethics mostly and will I ever do it again? I want more kids really bad so we will see if we go the ttc road or the adoption road, still trying to decide----- thanks so much for stopping by!!!!

Titles

Today I am thinking about titles, I know in the adoption world titles are important, like, adoptive mom, birth, first, natural mom, expectant mom, etc. and the list goes on and on. But I was thinking about titles and who gets to make these rules? I know some moms that have parented their kids and done a horrible job and really screwed their kids up , yet they are called Mom, but I know some moms who made a choice to let someone else parent their child ( a decision not made lightly and for sure out of love) yet we take the title of mom away from them? ok so lets take it a step further and go to the birth grandparents, some people think it is crazy if I "let" my kids call their birthgrandparents grandma_____ but my husbands step father that didnt even raise him and see my kids very little- well then it is perfectly fine for him to be paw paw ______ ? just thinking how this is confusing to me. And then my kids have people in my family they call Aunt because they are closer to my kids but may really just be their cousin, so do we go by how close we are, do we go by blood, because biologically speaking no one in my family is related to my kids? I think we just try to go by who is close to us in my family and maybe go from there. But I will say this, in the past 3 years, baby bears birthmom and birth gmother, have not forgotten one birthday or holiday (including mothers and fathers day) and have made a really big effort to be a part of both of my childrens lives in a positive way and regardless of title that is something I am very thankful for!