Brother Bear is 3 months old today!

He is growing so much!!!!! And Baby bear just keeps getting cuter every day!!
She is talking so much more now! her favorite sentence is " I go first" she pretty much applies it to everything! But tonight at dinner she said "I want more peaches please" - I am so impressed! Well here are a few pics of my beautiful little bears!

August

Well it is August - wow - the kiddos are a growing! Baby Bear is talking up a storm, last week I told her that I loved her and she said I love you too! wow! talking about an awesome mom moment! We are working on potty training - woo hoo! Brother Bear is growing very fast - I had someome ask me if I was feeding him miricle grow! lol! He is so alert now and cooing and smiling, and sleeping more during the night!
I am in need of a night on the computer to catch up on all my favorite blogs! oh and I have just recently been on a 3 day hunt for my favorite bra - silly me ofcourse I should have known it was in the dogs kennel! Sasha one of my 4 legged babies, I think felt sorry for me and got tierd of me looking for it and today she brought it out of her kennel and dropped it at me feet -- kinda sad when you dogs feel sorry for you!lol
well I better run while it is quiet I may take a shower - we will see!

Blondes have more fun!

So baby bear likes to pull the hair off of her dolls and I like to try it on brother bear! I am sure he will just love these when he gets older!

some pictures

Brother Bear 2 months old!



mama bear and baby bear - july 20th


2 years old today!


The birthday girl


The 2 kiddos!

Happy Birthday Baby Bear!

Well it is one day late - but we have been busy around the bear household! My little baby girl is 2 - wow! well I will post some pics later - my now 2 year old and 2 month old are both crying so I must run!

My poor little guy!

Well brother bear is in the hospital. Two days ago he ran a high fever and he was admitted, they did blood work and took spinal fluid and we are waiting to see what it is - they are thinking it is a bacterial infection in his blood stream - he will probably have a hospital stay of at least 10 days - but he has not had fever in 24 hours and is eating well! So just send up an extra prayer for our little guy if you can! Thanks!

Visit with Goldilocks and other thoughts on adoption...

SO Goldilocks was here last week (baby bears birthmom) and she got to meet brother bear (our latest addition to the bear family). We had a really great visit - she is awesome and our time togheter , well I value that. So what I am about to say may not make sense to some----- I have 2 children through adoption - one is very open and one is very closed (by choice of birthmom) I may never even get to meet brother bears birthmom - he may never either and we have NO info on his birthfather. I am sad for him because of this. But in a very selfish way - it is easy--- I know I know and believe me I feel guilty for feeling this way but it has been so easy having him in our family. I have not felt the guilt and utter saddness in my bones like I did with baby bear, I so felt Goldilocks' pain and sometimes felt like I had taken something that was not mine and that I should not have -- but with my son, he was already available for adoption when we were contacted, so he was going to be adopted, by me or someone, he needed a home and family - he was without one. I kinda almost feel like I have done something good - yeah thats right and it feels good to feel good about it! I think so many times in the adoption world we are so worried about doing what is right ( and we should) but sometimes the adoptive moms become the heavy and carry alot of guilt and responsibility that we may or may not should have to carry. Anyway it just feels so different, the two adoptions, for me.
I guess both have their issues and I know that the open is more healthy and will be better for my child, and I love being able to give that to her and it does make me sad for my son but for now it is easy - good , bad - whatever - it is still easier now! So if anyone wants to flame me go ahead - I just thought I would be honest, so many people have asked... thought I would add a few pics from last week! WE miss you Goldilocks!
Goldilocks and baby bear


Goldilocks and brother bear